Confession Project

Within my project I am confessing that as a child I use to feel alone and some what distant from my imediate family. My father spent most of his effort playing sports with my older brother and my mother spent her time with my sisters. Honestly I would wish for more attention. I am the youngest of my siblings. Now I'm not saying that they just completely ignored me but it was like I wasn't a priority or as if my voice was never herd. Perhaps it is the reasoning to why I'm a quiet person of few words. In order to receive attention I attempted to become a soccer player. Soccer is my fathers favorite sport so I figured it would give us some common ground. Even so my father hardly ever saw me play. Eventually I found art (drawing) as an escape. It brought a sense of peace and calmness within my soul. To this day I think that if there was one thing I could do for the rest of my life and never get bored of, it would be drawing.

My confession project is a still motion video about my parents lack of attention but I incorporated a great deal of symbolism rather than realism so that the confession wouldn't be too straight forward. I did so in order to show that it's not a topic I like to straight out say to people, especially those I don't really know. The first and last few images within the video I think tell the most about my confession, the images depict my sense of distance from the rest of my family. the mountains that represent my family shift into soccer cleats in order to depict the sport as a means of developing a common interest between us. The cleats later shift into a marker which is meant to symbolize my love for art and the comfort it has brought me. The D and the words that start with "d" show both the good and the bad that I have felt over the years. There are both uplifting and depressing words thrown into the mix. The clear eye bottle is an abstract way of stating my sorrow and my desire of crying but doing so in a way that I'm not openly saying that it made me want to cry. The transitioning of the eye was used to show that no one was watching me but I was always watching them. So this is the explanation of my confession and my confession project, I hope people enjoyed it.

(haven't figured out how to get video to play on blog)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nEUvHSMYw9U